I have officially been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. Another diagnoses to add to the list. I feel weird. I have seen it coming and yet, I still feel paranoid now at every "skinny" comment I hear. Every single day. Or when co-workers comment on my food. I don't feel I deserve the anorexia diagnosis and … Continue reading Fun, Friday, Food Issues, Father’s Day
Hey friends! I'm feeling so much better. I think my meds are finally leveling my mood out. I'm definitely not 100% so I'm keeping my fingers crossed as I head into an eventful weekend in NYC that always seems to trigger my "happier" manic self. I hope you are all surviving this crazy heat wave! … Continue reading Tuesday Thoughts!
I officially accepted, I'm hypomanic. I have spent over $3,000 on lounge wear, bikinis, underwear, candles, and who else knows I wrote my dad a Father's Day card over 15 times, editing it to be completely perfect and show the most amount of emotion I haven't been eating. I even made an instagram to prove … Continue reading Hello Hypomania
Why do I feel so alone? This is a question I ask myself always? Is it true that I just feel all the time. I think I've figured it out. It's hard to be intimate with any person, mom, sibling, best friend, boyfriend or classmate when they can't associate in close, personal situations. They don't … Continue reading Why do I feel so alone?
Things may be going bad, really quick. I want to be positive, though. Everyday is a bad day. No, everyday FEELS like a bad day. It's just a feeling, not a fact. Do you know when you wake up and you just want today to be good. Just one little thing but you don't even … Continue reading The Slippery Slope
What do you do when there isn't anything that anyone could say to make you feel better? And you have no one to talk to and feel stuck at work? I am open to all suggestions that will not result in me being fired or getting a warning. Thanks in advance! So much love … Continue reading LOOKING FOR ADVICE
I’m posting this on my original blog, Polarized Mind, and my new ED blog, Shelley Snacks. Today marks a new beginning. I met with an ED therapist. It was completely amazing and totally terrifying. She brought up such good points, things that were never mentioned before with other doctors. She brought up how my body … Continue reading The Prologue; Food Issues