It's nice to feel like me again. After a manic episode, I have never just come back to normal reality and lived life. But this time, I did. No hospitalizations. I didn't end up going to a partial program. I just nursed myself, in my studio apartment, back to health. It was not easy and … Continue reading Coming Back to Life
I feel like a fraud when I say I was manic because I never went to the hospital. I had my inpatient bags packed (no alcohol in my lotion!, etc) and my father called my psychiatrist to send me but I never went. My ex-boyfriend had my extra keys to take care of my cats … Continue reading The Manic Comedown
Well what a year it has been and it's only 12 days in. 2019. I have not gone back to work since 2018 because I have been on medical leave. Between 6 flights in 9 days, so many sleepless nights and foodless days and so much harm to my physical, mental and emotional health, I … Continue reading Hello Friends!
2019, we have arrived. 2018 was a hundred and more lifetimes long, it felt. New Years Eve was a weird night but I spent it with my favorite human, non biological sister, best friend and we laughed and cried and sat on the same side of the booth when we ate brunch this morning and … Continue reading The Happiest New Year
4 flights down and 2 more to go within 9 days..probably not the best for my mental health currently but what can I do. I left to go on vacation with my dad and had verbally stated to my co-worker I couldn't wait to go to "drunkenly cry to my dad". Once I commit to … Continue reading Home
“We must appreciate all that we survive: the small, the medium, and the monumental. Find gratitude in your life story. Wake up every morning and say to yourself, “I made it here from where I started, and I am so proud of that.” When we do this, we bless ourselves and feed ourselves with the … Continue reading Words
I shared too much. I told my best friends too much of my mind. I asked for too much advice. Too much of what they thought about my situation. I told them too much of what I was doing. Too much of how I was dealing with things I asked for too much guidance. Too … Continue reading When you Share Too Much