I feel so tired. From drinking all weekend long. From training for a 15k and a half marathon. From working and being on my feet, selling all day long. From worrying about money, my family, my holiday plans, my schedule. I am just tired. I feel like I could sleep forever. But I don't. I … Continue reading I Feel Tired.
So, the love of my life for many, many, many years was swimming. I swam competitively for so many years. I was recruited to the University of Michigan for swimming. It was my complete life. I could probably write a novel on my experience and relationship with the sport but the most important part was … Continue reading Finding a New Love
As a 24 year-old, it's normal and somewhat expected to socialize on the weekends by binge drinking and staying out late. The past few weekends, I've spent both Friday and Saturday night asleep by 10. I have to admit, there were a few weeknights that I regrettably went out too late and drank too much … Continue reading The Art of Staying In
Today is our day! And it's also everyone's day. To celebrate the diagnosed, the family and friends impacted by the diagnosed, the ones who help us through our diagnoses, and actually every single person on this planet since they are all influenced in someway by us, how lucky! I don't think I knew what mental … Continue reading Happy World Mental Health Day!
To my loyal, consistent followers, what a journey this year has been. 2017 has been insane. It's not over yet, but it has gone from every single disorder the DSM can list. But finally, finally, finally, finally, I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I went through mania, anorexia, bulimia, self-harm, a … Continue reading Moving on up!
I’ve always destroyed myself. Through any means, drinking way beyond my body’s ability, starving myself by setting a stupidly low caloric daily intake for months, telling myself awful things, allowing myself to be taken advantage of both emotionally, financially and sexually, and even just physically pushing my body by working out too much. I have … Continue reading Being Destroyed.
Hi Friends!!! I haven't felt this way in a while. It's not sadness, anxiety, mania or being hungover (which I was when I woke up this morning). But I had hope. The store owner texted me telling me she couldn't wait to experience more of me and more of what I have to give … Continue reading Happiness Comes Back!