I’m really sick

I can’t stay in the city tonight. I broke a wine glass in the grill room. It was so embarrassing. And I got back to my room, in the shower and broke down sobbing about being so sad. I don’t even know what I’m sad about. 

I guess, I feel like it’s unfair. I didn’t do anything to deserve this disease or illness. I can’t live the life I want. 

I met with these BeautyCounter mentors and I got so excited and then I realized I may be gone for 2 weeks. We laughed and had so much fun. I really don’t remember how long it’s been since I’ve just had a fun girls night out. 

 I don’t want to go to the hospital. I don’t want to be sick. I want a normal life and I’m playing victim, for once, and it’s not fair. I’m sad. And my dad is coming to pick me up in NYC because I can’t stop crying. I can’t stay the night here alone. For once, I can’t be strong. I can’t carry myself home. 

I guess the one positive is I ate more calories today than I have the entire month. I still feel down. Tomorrow is my appointment. That’s all I have to say for now. 

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5 thoughts on “I’m really sick

  1. Perhaps normality will return is you go to hospital. It is a reprieve – not having any responsibilities. It could be just the treatment you need. I also feel life is unfair. Life is an asshole in my opinion. So get angry. Don’t let Life take you down. Fight and fight dirty

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  2. Stay strong…and let’s help each other 🙂 Come and see our Instagram account, we will be motivating everyday…and working together to help one another, though we are all in different positions, I think it could turn into a great resource 🙂

    Instagram:@myhealthrev

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